keeping nights

1/12/04

out of your light and the end of tonight I see everything coming together to tell me to go back

to find me clutching at my gut like its incidence was answer enough

anyday now this fleeting coincidence will tell you it’s too much

tell me you kept some secret stash of it, hidden from my abuses and sorrows crumpled drummer boy

little by little shattered is ok and now this is the forecast you can confide in me to wreak the havoc you needed

she found a mark to go by and now she’s lost beyond the line somewhere in the great north

blinded by the snow and crunching endless through the white of those forgotten dream

was it all a hope, when your inner child freezes its deep slanted obligations to wretch into the gutter of your ambivalence?

she used to drown

I am alive and now I’m free and controlled interception is my deep dark expression in this fortitude of servery

eyes the truth and march towards the horizon, it wont recede past your vaunted definitions

and plan for nothing more than the dawn

he said go, she said to feel the stark bonds of contemplation and know the force of habit and its dark chains

this is my universal to grapple my servitude out in fresh snow angels and deep softed drifts

numb with cord and blaze your night untold

merely seek to fight the rhythm and painful flashes render memories the dangerous territory of cold beds and sleeping reels of silent reveries

a fugue on her, a reminiscence of grandpas past

I’m not so sure anymore, dived beneath my skin and kill the smell of angry men

stay there till dawns sweet steam sinks your further into seeping ambivalence once more beholden to the Ontario sun

somebody’s back

keep me warm